BANDAGES

A while ago, my friend Connie told me about a show she put together, where one of the artists submerged herself repeatedly in a bath of ice water, in a way of talking about surviving abuse. This idea has stuck with me, and the notion of turning physical pain into a representation of emotional pain. To me, the shock of the ice and the numbness of the body encapsulates what it means to survive trauma. Horrifically painful, violent, but the frequent dissociation and disconnect with reality, and the way that we involuntarily get back into the ice bath each day through the recovery process.
I'm waiting to get in contact with the artist to ask her more about this performance, and whether she minds me referencing it in my own work, by filming myself getting into an ice bath in a hotel room as I'm wrapped in bandages. As I resonate with the performance so much I really hope she is okay with me doing this, but I have to respect her wishes if she isn't comfortable with it.

NICE SPRITE MOODBOARD

this one's kind of like a neon medieval warrior / spring breakers and everytime i try to fly i fall without my wings / this one's about being angry and feeling violent / being self righteous in my rage / Skrillex scary monsters and nice sprites /

set ideas :  St Dunstan in the east 

makeup :  paint around eyes dark red or black 

costume :  Britney mask, chain mail top, silver trousers or white sports leggings, boots 

ANGEL MOODBOARD

Grimes, flesh eating angel / dragged backwards through a hedge / the willis who make men dance to their death / some kind of hope for cleanliness or peace / give me back my peace of mind / screaming with my earphones in / i hope you're somewhere praying

rachel platten fight song, kesha praying, don't let the bastards get you down 

set ideas : outdoors, nature, richmond park at sunrise in the cold, isabella plantations and the pond there

makeup : white out eyebrows, pink / orange nose and cheeks 

costume : bridesmaid dress, angel wings, gloves (?), veil (?)

bare feet

THANK YOU KESHA

Thank you Kesha

here lies a grey pile of ash

and a neon phoenix that was born there

300 miles from where it used to be, 

( p    t          s          d        _)

and i swear she's talking just to me